Slow + Deep

Reflecting on 2024 in the belly of winter and practicing not rushing to the next bit

I’m writing this on 4th Jan and I know 2025 has officially begun but can we give it a minute?

I am still saying goodbye to 2024.

A day is not enough to digest a whole year.

Transitions do not happen in an instant.

I need a lot of time to honour what has been.

I engage in a beautiful Unravel Your Year practice that I always split across different days.

One day to look back and then a break before setting aside some time to look forward.

I am still very much in the reflect and digest part of this process.

In these dark months.

In the belly of winter.

I am not advocating that everyone does this, but this slow approach suits me better.

This is because I like to move fast, be in the future, on to the next thing.
And oftentimes, I miss important lessons this way and repeat the same old stuff - then wonder why.

Or I gloss over things that were actually deeply important, robbing myself of the riches.

The only antidote to this for me is to slow down some.

And then to forget and have to remember again to slow down some more.

So this afternoon I have been on my mat, in front of this sacred corner, reflecting on 2024.

2024 Reflections

It’s been a year of a lot of movement and the energy of being up and out.

The older I get the more I feel a desire to come in and down.

To connect with how I am feeling and to drop into my deeper wisdom and to allow this to guide me.

2024 has not been a year of that.

I have moved house / city and then been travelling back to my old one to take care of a friend.

I have spent more time with my Mum - a key reason for moving back from overseas who lives an hour away - more movement.

At the start of the year I was still working in London and Brighton despite not living in either of those places.

I accept all the responsibility for these choices but it is interesting to observe this pattern of always being in motion when my soul calls for something else.

I have experienced some financial compression whilst experimenting with a lot of ways to make money and settled on something that feels like it might work in 2025.

I have realised that I am attached to an idea that I must graft to make life work. And some part of me is a) good at and b) enjoys being in that energy. There is an aliveness to it but it is a kind of vapour, dancing in the top part of the flame rather than the hot glowing heart of things.

Whilst I am not rushing to intention set for 2025 I wonder if some part of this coming year would be best experienced slowly.

I live fast. But not always deep.

And actually the truth is that I run very deep.

But I haven’t always honoured that in 2024.

There have been moments though.

The one to one sessions I have run this year have all been incredibly special. The Moon Retreat is always absolutely dreamy and the year closed out with an incredible 4 day Sacred Somatic Immersion that honestly blew me open.

The depth of experience, the power and courage of those of you who come to this work and the big beautiful open hearts of the people I get to call colleagues are a beautiful deep part of my life.

May 2025 be full of such depth.

How was 2024 for you?

What words do you have to describe it?

Love

Cat x